In fact, I went to the Elf Fantasy Fair today, where I saw Vincent Regan walking 'in the wild'. Much to my own surprise I dared to ask him to go on a picture with me, which he did (very nice man by the way, very friendly). C'est the result:
Aw. How lovely.
A bit more frightening when he's at work...Posted in: EFF 2008, Movie, My Pagan Me, Photo's Sunday, April 20, 2008 at 18:30 2 comments
Awakening
On misty moors
Mother Earth,
dampened
by a thousand dewdrops,
gave birth
to me –
another morn.
Reborn
Who I am, I cannot say
but I became alive today
my heart is beating, sound of drums
breath, like Spring storms, fills my lungs
the Eagle's become my eye.
The drum goes on, I dance around
my feet now barely touch the ground
the blood is pulsing in my ears
while thoughts and words all disappear
My soul soars through the sky.
Who I was, I cannot tell,
the shadows from the past all fell
dissolved in rays of morning sun,
I shed my tears, but laughter won,
A new life before me lies.
© 2008 Nathalitanis
Posted in: My Pagan Me, Poetry Monday, March 24, 2008 at 19:59 0 comments
A pigeon sits not far away
and looks inside as if to say:
Rookoo, do tell me!
Rookoo, I pray
that you do tell me
what there may
happen,
if I would,
rookoo
– lets say –
flew in there?
I wonder, hey,
wouldn't that be something
wouldn't that be great?
I wonder if I could,
I might,
I wonder if
– in fullest flight –
rookoo – I'd make it
what a sight
that would make,
oh what a sight!
If I would fly
with all my might
through that portal
of reflecting light!
Rookoo – then I would be,
could see, with my own eyes
that same-like tree
and strange old pigeon
a perfect copy
from closer range
Rookoo – that'd be
so much fun!
if I could see
another pigeon,
just like me!
Rookoo, the pigeon
there he fell
with one loud thud
and down he fell
he was put under
his own spell
and just last second
he could tell
rookoo,
yes now he saw
quite well
the solid window.
Fare thee well.
© 2008 Nathalitanis
Posted in: Poetry Saturday, March 22, 2008 at 10:40 2 comments
So. What have I been up to?
Well, apparently I've had a blackout this afternoon since I signed up at a gym. Uhuh. A gym as in a place to :::gulp::: do exercises.
I don't know what has gotten into me, but there you have it. Me doing fitness.
I chose to go to Curves, which is solely for women, and the workout only takes 30 minutes per time, which hopefully means I won't get bored doing it. And you don't have to go on set dates and times, so if I want to go there straight from work, than I don't have to stress or hurry when I'm delayed. We'll see how it goes, tomorrow I start and the goal I've set with the staff there is to loose 11 kilos - to reach my goal weight of 55 kilos. Wish me luck!
Work is going well too. I've started to get along even with the people I didn't like at first, and I've had several people from different departments saying that I 'can keep working there' if it was up to them. Which it is not of course, but it's nice to hear anyway.
I will get my contract though, and the way things are looking now, the contract will start on April 1st. In other words; on April Fools day. Apparently it is not a joke and I will get my contract...If not, I'll chain myself to the front door :) According to one of the older employees the company itself came to life on April the 1st, so perhaps it's a good date.
Sometimes I'm a bit confused though, because my team leader and the head of the department (aka Purchase Manager) seem to have different agenda's. The first wants to 'protect' me from the others, wants me to double check with him and make sure I get things right, while the latter wants me to get involved in all the heavy stuff and make deals with vendors, and today he signed me up again for the internal trainings I've had months back, just to make sure I understand everything, and perhaps see things in a new light now that I know the company and products better. Yay, that'll be fun. NOT. Not that I told him that of course, since he already makes me nervous. He kind of reminds me of a bull terrier, small, intelligent without looking the part, hyper active, and he tends to stare at and you smile a bit without saying anything, so you're never quite sure whether he wants you to do or say something, whether you're right or wrong, or whether he's mocking you. So usually if he asks me a question I say: "A"..."B?"..."erm...A and B?", "What?! SAY SOMETHING!" And than he just grabs his head and screams. Or he already starts screaming before I even ask him anything. I'm used to it now, but he scared the shit out off the Sales Manager who was in the same room at the time.
My team leader often sings: "I work at a mental hospital, and this is the closed wing. Mad, they're all mad!"
Hmmm. I think I have to agree.
Posted in: Curves, Losing Weight, Work Tuesday, March 18, 2008 at 20:07 1 comments
Think I can't see you? I know that you're there
in darkness and shadow, no more do I care
In corners of eyes, a shape, outline, shows
I used to be frightened, but now I do know
a shadow of cat, not my own – he's asleep
a spirit of cat, through the hallways does creep
an essence of cat, once alive does not spook
me, I see that you're moving, but with a quick look
you vanish in thick air, yet my pet seems to see
that you sit right there, accompanying me.
Think I can't see you? I feel that your here
in evening and nighttime, no longer I fear
the darkness grows deeper, I can't see no more
no walls, and no ceilings, not here - like before
I can't speak your name, do not know what you are
I felt you since childhood, can sense you from far
You're not like ghost kitty, you're different I know
You're a bundle of emptiness, cold as fresh snow
You black empty shadow, you black empty soul
hand back what you took, give the light you once stole.
You know that I see you? Can feel you around?
In corners, in doorways, in echoing sounds?
I know that you're here, and you know I am too
we live in one home, in times old, in times new
we live side by side, bound to be in one space
but I no longer fear your dark shadow face
A silent agreement, to live and let creep
Shadows beside me while I wake and I sleep
Unlikely alliance, home spirits and me
for all 't is a challenge, yet so mote it be.
© 2008 Nathalitanis
Posted in: My Pagan Me, Poetry Sunday, March 16, 2008 at 13:36 0 comments
Come to me, come to me, come to me
come to me, forefathers, known to me
come to me, ancestors of good heart
teach me your wisdom, lighten my path
I beg you, my forefathers, I beg thee
I beg thee to guide me, and strengthen me
I beg thee to help me live my life well
to give me your patience, no lies should I tell
I greet you, my forefathers, I greet you today
Our meet now is over, in my heart you will stay
Your blood through my veins, my eyes mirror yours,
your essence remains, those once lost live once more.
© 2008 Nathalitanis
Posted in: My Pagan Me, Poetry at 13:35 0 comments
Two clips and a picture made by a girl I met during paganbal. The videos are very dark, you can't see anyone properly, but know that I'm dancing there somewhere!
oh, and the shorty on the left - c'est moi - with a friend I met due to Omnia...is it clear we're having fun (not to mention being tired and sweaty) ?
Posted in: Balfolk, My Pagan Me, paganbal Monday, March 10, 2008 at 18:25 1 comments
